Waiting for the Fog to Lift

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November is not Iowa’s best month.

Maybe that’s why our small state has never been a destination location in late fall, except for the fourth Thursday of the month when people come back in droves for an indoor frenzy of food and football. Considering Iowa’s landscape this time of year, who can blame our inhabitants and visitors for eating themselves into a stupor and yelling at a bunch of goofy guys in helmets running around on TV?

True, the temperatures have been mild for November and the winds calm. But the cloudy gray skies, the bare, gray tree limbs, and the feeble, ineffective hours of daylight make for poor eye candy during my daily walks. In fact the scenery is so glum, it takes all the discipline I can muster and an Evelyn Lundberg Counseling Agency pep talk to force me out the door.

This past Saturday was no exception. In addition to the normal gloom, a thick fog settled over our area. No need to become road kill this close to the holidays, I thought, and delayed my walk until mid-morning. Even then, the mist hadn’t completely dissipated. Everything around me was gray and shades of gray, at ten in the morning no less.

And then I walked behind our community college. The campus was quiet and empty for the weekend, except for a row of wet and shivering crab apple trees between the parking lot and the buildings. The naked branches were loaded with fruit, crying as the blanket of fog lifted and left them exposed and red and lovely.

What other beauty is hidden in the fog, beauty I miss by concentrating on dreariness and gloom? What bright colors have I missed, driven indoors by gray skies and weak sun?

Instead of waiting for the fog to lift, perhaps I should walk into it and find joy in unexpected places, in every season of the year.

Mushy Friday

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This morning, as I slogged down our gravel road, I could only think of one word to describe the weather on my first full day back in Iowa.

Mushy.

The road was mushy, pot-holed and slippery, unable to absorb all the rain we’ve received.  Lawns were strewn with a mushy, sodden carpet of leaves.

The muscles in my legs were mushy, out of shape and useless as I climbed the steep hill beyond the bridge.

The damp in the air made my clothes so mushy and heavy they clung to me, smothering my skin.

My mind felt mushy, overwhelmed by the piles of bills, an overflowing email inbox, thank you notes to write, and books to send after my walk was over.

Then the cold wind, egged along by all I need to do in too little time, pushed against my heart and I wanted to go home and crawl back in bed instead of tackling the demands of today, my spirits turned mushy, too.

Mushy and mopey, I walked by a burning bush, brilliant in spite of the gloom and flanked by a yellow maple tree bright as the sun. The day was as mushy as ever, but glowing colors warmed me. They burned off the gloom, and evaporated the dampness in my heart. I walked home, full of purpose. My mind was sharp with red and yellow foliage, challenged by its brilliant refusal to surrender to the mushiness of this gloomy, cold October.

Time to get to work.

Little Rose

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Winter arrived abruptly this year. With the turn of the calendar page, Iowa went from a dry, warm September to a chilly, damp October. Speaking on behalf of the residents of our state, along with the flora and the fauna, I can tell you we’re still shivering with shock. Hopefully, an ambulance will arrive soon, and the EMTs will wrap us in blankets and elevate our heads until we can get to the hospital for an IV packed with mild autumn days and crisp, cool (but not frigid) nights.

This business of going straight from summer with winter has given me a wistful appreciation for fall. I’m longing for hayrides, picking out pumpkins at a pumpkin patch, the fall colors, rolling around in the crisp softness of piles of newly raked leaves. Instead, the days are full of rain and wind, the nights end with hard frosts and a skim of ice on the rain barrel.

The critters aren’t handling this abrupt winter very well either. In fact, sometime yesterday, after the farmer down the road harvested his corn, Mickey and Minnie winterized their summer cabin, battened their boat in the dock, packed their bags and headed for their favorite winter digs in my car. We’re evicting the squatters even as I speak, using as much violence as necessary, even though I sympathize with their discombobulation.

Near the garage, which the mice have dubbed “the Philo Marriott,” one rose bush refuses to bow to the inevitable. This morning, heavy frost covered it’s last, brave rose bud. I was sure it would turn black when the sun hit. But this afternoon, the flower waved its petals, bright and pink, when I went to get the mail.

Suddenly, I wanted to knit a tiny stocking cap for the courageous little thing, rig up my blow dryer as a heater. Something, anything to thank little Rose for bringing a touch of summer courage into my frosty soul.

But don’t think I’m getting to be an old softy. Mickey and Minnie are still out on their ears…unless you’d like them to live at your house.

Not My Best Day

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Today has not been my best day.

I got up bright and early to start the wash. As I hung the last piece of laundry on the clothesline, it began to rain.

Thinking it would only take an hour, I organized the snake pit of cords and electronic devices in my office, record bills, and run errands before sitting down to write. By the time I finished it was almost lunchtime.

When Anne said she wouldn’t be home for dinner, I decided to make a nice lunch for the family since Hiram’s home today, and we don’t get to eat together very often. The blueberry pie boiled over.

When I finally settled down work on my new website, I clicked on a page that needed editing. But the page wasn’t there, though I distinctly remembering clicking the save button. It took a long time to write last week. It will take a long time to write it again.

While I worked on the website, Anne made cookies. When I discovered the page was missing, I went to the kitchen and ate three cookies before realizing they had raisins in them. I don’t like cookies with raisins in them.

An email greeted me when I got back to work again. The CD I sent for a church group to review wouldn’t play for them. It wasn’t until after burning a new CD that I reread the email. They’d been putting the CD in a DVD player.

This definitely has not been my best day.

Choosing an image to accompany this dismal post wasn’t easy, until I found this picture of the hydrangea on the east side of our house. Even though today has not been my best day,  the picture made me smile because no matter how bad today is, the hydrangeas keep blooming. Not only that, but the sun is shining (thank goodness I left the clothes on the line in hopes of better weather), my husband loves me, my kids are healthy and in love, we can pay our bills each month, and our sorry excuse of a dog now lives with my brother and his saintly wife.

Today hasn’t been my best day, but it’s still very, very good.